Page 20 of Doctor’s Orders

“I want you to fuck me without a condom. I don’t want anything between us. I’m clean and I’m on the birth control shot now because I’m evidently super fertile.”

“I would laugh at that, but you asking me to take you bareback has short-circuited my brain.”

She pulls off her shirt and unhooks her bra.

“Should we lock the door?” I ask.

“They don’t normally wake up in the night, but since it’s a new place, then probably.” She rolls off of me and walks over to the door to close and lock it.

I pull back all the covers and take off my pants and boxers. She turns to walk back to me and her eyes are locked on my cock.

I grip it and give it a few strokes.

“You are so sexy,” she says. She comes closer then falls to her knees in front of me.

“You don’t have to do that,” I tell her.

“I want to. I want to feel the weight of you dick on my tongue and taste you.”

“Goddamn it, sugar, you’re going to kill me.” Since I’ve never been in an actual relationship, I can count the number of blow jobs I’ve had. One-night-fucks, yes. But there’s a level of vulnerability in letting someone put their mouth on you. So it’s not something I’ve allowed very often.

She wraps her hand around my shaft, then leans forward and swirls her tongue around the head.

“Lizzie, oh God, you have no idea how fucking beautiful you look on your knees like that.”

She sucks the head of my dick into her mouth and hollows her cheeks. I fight the urge to pump myself into her mouth. I thread my fingers into her blonde hair. Then she lowers her head, sucking more of me into her mouth.

“Oh fuck,” I whisper. “I’m not going to last long with you doing that. You feel incredible.”

She moans and the vibrations shoot pleasure up my spine. My balls tighten.

“Fuck. Lizzie.”

Her tongue works the underside of my dick and she fondles my balls and that’s all it takes to have me shooting my load down her throat.

Three words rise in my head and I nearly have to bite my tongue to keep them inside. Because I don’t know. Having a woman suck your soul out through your cock can seem a lot like bigger emotions. I’m not even sure I know what that feels like.

So instead, I pick her up, and she wraps about my body like a koala.

“That was amazing. Now it’s time for me to make you see stars.” I toss her on the bed. “Get naked, sugar.”

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twelve

Lizzie

My whole body bounces when he drops me on the bed, and I laugh like a little girl. He gives me a wink and circles the bed.

I pull the rest of my clothes off and kneel in the center of the bed. I’ve always been a bigger girl. My grandmother always told Annabelle and me that we got our big bones from our mother’s side. Whatever. After carrying two beautiful kids in this body, I’ve made peace with all my curves and wobbly bits.

My stretch marks are my badges of honor for motherhood. And I’m not feeling even a little self-conscious right now. Yes, I’ve been naked with him before, but that night he was mostly a stranger.

Now, he’s a man that I love. One that I know I can’t have in the long run, but I’m going to take what he’s willing to give me. At least for tonight.

“How do you want me?” I ask.

“Any way I can have you.”