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“No.”
“Does it make you nauseous?”
“No. It’s just pressure,” I tell him.
“Where?”
“I…” I start to say, but I take his hand instead and place it on my low belly, inches above my pussy.
“My sweet kitten,” he says softly. “I want you to understand that I have self-control.”
“What do you mean?”
“It means that I have never been this fucking turned on, but I will never hurt you. I will never force you,” he says.
“You mean you are…”
“Hard?” he asks. “I am.”
“Can I… Is that weird?” I ask. “I just… I feel like an idiot. Like this is childish.”
“You spent years being abused,” he says. “You had your innocence stolen from you, and now you are learning everything after. This is just a part of healing.”
“Well… In the name of healing…” I start to say, but my face burns with shame.
“Do you want to feel how much you turn me on, Kitten? Is that what you want?”
“I don’t want to have sex yet, I…”
“Me being turned on doesn’t mean we have to have sex, my love,” he says. “I’m right here, Kitten. Explore.”
“I… They are about to be here and… I have a lot to learn,” I say nervously.
“May I?” he asks, and I nod.
Beckett gently takes my hand and places it on his cock, wrapping our fingers around him through his jeans. He groans when I squeeze slightly, and that is fucking beautiful.
I did that? Better yet, I did that, and he isn’t hurting me. He wants me comfortable and… He isn’t repulsed by me. I want to see more of that.
“Now, let's have dinner,” Beckett says, gently kissing me.
That’s the first time he’s kissed me on the lips, and I need that again. I grab his face and kiss him again, and he wraps his arms around my body, gently grabbing my hair to pull my head back. He places gentle kisses on my neck, making me whimper.
“I can’t wait to watch you melt for me, Sierra,” he says before kissing me again.
“Pizza is here!” Bella calls out from the hallway. I jump back, nearly panting.
“When they leave, we can explore more if you want,” Beckett says. “Or we can read.”
“Explore,” I say with a shy smile. He kisses my nose before we finish getting dressed and go out to the living room. I have on shorts and one of Beckett’s shirts. Beckett has on a white T-shirt and sweatpants.
“Hey,” Bella says with a grin. “Bex, I’m going to put a bag on your bed.”
“Mhmm,” Beckett grunts. He sits on the couch and gently grabs my hips to pull me into his lap.
“Bex!” I giggle and squirm in his lap when he tickles my sides. With a deep chuckle, he wraps his arms around me to hug me back against his chest.
Bella sits in Mason’s lap, and he grabs her hips to pull her back against him, making her laugh. Interesting.
