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We don't kiss.
The not-kissing is the loudest thing I've ever heard. Louder than the chain vibrating behind me. Louder than her breathing against my mouth. It's the sound of two people standing at the edge of something irreversible and holding still — not because we don't want to cross but because crossing means this room isn't a room and this chain isn't a chain and whatever we've been calling this isn't what it is anymore.
Crossing means choice.
Her eyes hold mine. Dark. Wet at the edges. Her pulse visible in her throat — fast, climbing, the body's verdict delivered through the skin for anyone close enough to see. And I am close enough. I am close enough to feel her heartbeat through her chest against mine.
I stay.
She stays.
The chain hums between us like a held breath.
And the distance between our mouths — two inches of air carrying the weight of every room she's ever built and every wall I've ever watched from behind and every goddamn thing we've been pretending this is — holds.
It costs us everything to hold it.
She puts her hand back on my chest. Not pushing this time. Resting. Her palm over my heartbeat and her fingers still against the fabric and her eyes asking me for something her mouth won't say.
Wait.
I step back. The chain settles. The room exhales.
And I know — the way I know the King coded a trapdoor into Fabio's system, the way I know Romeo's mercy built me and broke me in the same breath — I know that the next time she speaks, it will be the truth. All of it.
Because the body has already said what the mouth hasn't.
Every room she puts me in will become honest.
Because the honesty isn't in the walls.
13
isadora
"The Burning Building"
His voice has not changed.
Twelve years. Four countries. A body manufactured in Trieste and a name ripped from every database on the continent and the girl who carried both buried so deep I forget she breathes sometimes.
And Emiliano Maritz says one word into a phone line and my body knows him before my brain catches up.
The real name. The one Giovanni stripped from every record in eleven minutes while I sat across from him in a harbor city and watched myself disappear. The one no living mouth has spoken since a burning building in Corsica and a man who said run and meant I have been watching for you since the night they tried to erase you and I will be watching long after they believe they succeeded.
The sound of it catches in my throat. Lodges there. I can't swallow around it.
I'm parked in the industrial corridor. Warehouses stretching ahead through the windshield. My hands are on the wheel and they are steady and that steadiness is a goddamn lie because everything underneath is shaking.
"Emiliano." His name in my mouth for the first time in twelve years. The taste of it is smoke and the specific silence of a man standing beside a car with the engine running while a building burns against the Corsican sky.
He doesn't rush. He has never rushed me. His patience isn't a tactic. It's personal. He waits the way a lighthouse waits — the beam doesn't chase. The beam holds position and trusts the ship to find it.
"I know about the youngest," he says.
My fingers tighten on the wheel.
"I know about the room. The three years. What they've been giving him." His voice carries the weight of a man who has been holding information the way I hold the photograph on my dresser — face-down, acknowledged, never looked at straight because looking means feeling and feeling costs hours I can't afford. "Vittore traced the Marchese routing through three layers. The contract is real. The funding is legitimate."
