Miss Fairfax and the Secret Symphony
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PROLOGUE
“The first serious thought that occurred to her was, that she had lost her way in some of the terrible recesses of the mansion.”
Ann Radcliffe
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March 7, 1808
Salt wind tore along the cliff edge. Little Isolde Fairfax felt the howl through the nursery glass before she heard it. The pane was icy. Her palms stung. When she pulled them away, two small prints lingered on the misted pane. She followed the gulls wheeling under a sky gone dull as old pewter. Far below, the sea flung white crests at the broken rock, again and again, as if it meant to chew the bluff down to crumbs. Spray rose so high she imagined she could taste it through the glass.
She loved that wildness. Always had. Salt filmed the glass. The birds shrieked at weather rolling in from the west. In those minutes, she felt joined to something huge and ungoverned, something that knew the quiet itch under her ribs even when she had no word for it.
The itch came from days that ran into days. Same meals. Same lessons. Same hush. Grimsfell Hall sat on the bluff like a watchman built of stone and shadow. Its old bones complained under centuries of weather. Passages doubled back on themselves. Stairs climbed toward attics nobody used. Rooms held the smell of beeswax and tired lavender. Isolde knew every groan in the boards. She knew every draft through the iron grates that stared from the walls. On wet afternoons she had charted them in her head while rain beat the mullioned windows and Papa bent over his ledgers two floors below.
Familiar as the place was, it still tugged at her. Papa named it a sacred trust. History slept in the timbers, he said, waiting for the right hands. On clear evenings he took her up to the battlements and pointed toward the far ruins of Tintagel Castle while the cliffs turned gold.
“Do you see it, my heart?” he would say, his voice rich with the old stories. “Arthur walked that ground. We Fairfaxes keep the echo of that glory.” Isolde would lean into his coat, golden-blonde curls whipping, and picture herself as Guinevere. Or the Lady of the Lake. Beautiful. Strong. Looked at. Loved.
Those fancies never lasted. She was no queen. She was a girl confined to the nursery, taught by Papa or by a tutor fetched now and then from Truro. Geography came easily, with its maps of far countries. History woke for her, full of knights and quests.
Then came the first steps of Latin, which Papa required, though the words snagged her tongue like briars. Success earned a quiet word of praise and a gentle pat from her father, whose gray-blue eyes went soft then.
Faults nagged all the same. She stole sweets from the pantry when backs were turned. She pried at locked drawers, hungry for hidden wonders. She ached for company beyond the hall’s empty rooms. Mrs. Roskelly named her bright as a new penny. Isolde wondered what brightness was worth when one shone by oneself.
She left the window. Slippered feet crossed the worn Turkey carpet without a sound. The nursery ran high to the beams and took its warmth from a hearth behind an iron screen cut with vines and fleurs-de-lis. Books packed one wall. Fairy tales from Charles Perrault. Volumes of old myths. Her treasure sat among them most days, a copy of Dante’s The Divine Comedy in soft green leather, gilt edges flashing when the fire caught them. Papa had placed it in her hands at her last birthday, not a month gone. His long fingers had rested on the cover as if a blessing might pass through the hide.
The book was not on the shelf. She must have left it below.
“Read it through, Isolde,” he had told her. “Hell and heaven both. True strength is the will to walk through fire and come out the other side.”
She had eaten up Inferno, following the woodcuts of suffering souls with a mix of dread and hunger, asking herself whether such pain waited for anyone who wandered from virtue.
Gooseflesh ran over her arms and yanked her back. The fire had sunk in the night. Embers glowed faint as tired eyes. Grimsfell never quite lost its chill, no matter how many logs Mrs. Roskelly heaped on. Isolde wrapped her arms about herself. The thin lawn of her nightdress did little against the draft leaking through the casements. Cold licked her ankles. She started for the hearth to coax heat when a knock came, soft, at the door.
Mrs. Roskelly came in with the tray, a woman who had climbed those narrow back stairs every dawn for near forty years. Three-and-fifty now. Round face, cheeks pinked by Atlantic weather, graying hair pulled into a tight bun that let no strand wander. A gray serge gown sat neat under a starched apron wide enough to have opinions of its own. Thick wool stockings vanished into sensible boots that made a soft waddling thump. For all her comfortable bulk, she could move fast when she had to. Isolde had seen her cover the kitchen flags in a blink to drag a kettle off the boil.
Blue eyes, bright and sharp as winter sea-glass, caught the firelight under her brows as she lowered the tray. Steam lifted from chocolate thick enough to hold a spoon upright. Beside the pot sat two fat slices of bread, heat still in them, yellow butter standing in ridges under a spoon of last summer’s blackberry jam.
“Look at ye, up already,” she sang, north-coast vowels rolling like water on shingle. “Awake with the gulls again, are ye? The gale’s in a rare temper. Near lifted the chimney pot off the east wing.”
She went to the hearth and jabbed the fire hard enough that sparks jumped like startled insects. “Yer papa’s got company. The vicar and his folk, come grousing about the bridge on the moor road. Best bide in yer room till they’re off, my lamb. I’ll bring yer lessons by and by.”
Isolde nodded and took the cup in both hands. Rich. Dark. A hint of cinnamon Mrs. Roskelly swore came from her grandmother’s grandmother. A charm against Cornish mist and cold blood. Steam carried sweetness and spice. Isolde breathed it in and let it push the last of the chill from her chest.
“Will they linger?” she asked, more from manners than true curiosity. Callers were scarce at Grimsfell, and they never stayed. Papa liked solitude. Letters and study filled his days. Ancient books filled his evenings in the library. Isolde was used to the quiet. Still, she wondered what laughter would sound like in these halls, or what it would be to have a playmate who kept her secrets.
“Not if yer papa can help it,” Mrs. Roskelly said, chuckling, eyes bright as she smoothed Isolde’s hair. The touch felt like a mother’s, in all but name. “He’s no friend to company, as well ye know. Eat now, miss. Maps this morning. The Americas. Wild country and red Indians. Picture it. Woods thick as night. Rivers wide as the sea. Folk living free as birds.”
She moved about the room, tugging the bedclothes straight and plumping the pillows, her hands quick and fond. “One day ye might see it with yer own eyes. A grand jaunt, eh?”
Isolde sipped her chocolate, the warmth spreading through her chest like a soothing balm. She imagined it sailing across the Atlantic on a great ship, the deck pitching beneath her feet, the wind whipping her hair as she stood at the prow, discovering lands where no one knew the name Fairfax or the weight of its legacies.
In those dreams she was bold. No shy knot in her tongue. No smallness that made her feel overlooked in her own house. Then the truth returned, as it always did. Papa went to Rome and Vienna, to dusty archives and dim cathedrals. He never took her. “The world deals harshly with the young,” he would say, sorrow in his voice that made no sense to her. “This house is your kingdom, Isolde. Within these walls you are safe.”
Mrs. Roskelly departed with a final pat on Isolde’s cheek, leaving her alone with her breakfast and her thoughts. The wind continued its song outside, a mournful accompaniment to the crackle of the reviving fire. Isolde tore into the bread, the preserves sticky on her fingers, its sweetness a counterpoint to the salt tang from the thick butter. She ate methodically, her mind wandering back to Dante. The book lay forgotten on the drawing-room settee where she had been reading the night before. She had fallen asleep with it open on her lap, the woodcuts of hell staring up at her as the fire died to embers. Papa had carried her to bed himself, his arms strong and sure, tucking the blankets around her with unusual tenderness.
“Sleep well, my guardian,” he had whispered, a phrase that puzzled her even as it warmed her heart. She could not bear to be parted from it a moment longer. The Inferno called to her imagination with its circles of fire and weeping shades. She had been tracing the woodcuts with a reverent finger until sleep finally claimed her.