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“She doesn’t.”

Alyssa

oh! Hi!!

Are you … going to a party?

For once—only because it is what Alyssa wants to hear, and it is the best tactic for the situation at hand—I am honest.

Or as honest as I need to be.

I tell her I’m going out with some guys Saturday night, and I’ll probably be drinking. I tell her this is about Jane Doe. I tell her there’s protection in numbers. She doesn’t even have to do anything, she just has to be there, be a warm body in a room next to me. I know she doesn’t want to get involved, but if she’s so goddamn fixated on keeping me safe—

Morgan

this is literally the least you can do

It takes her a long time to reply.

In the meantime, I get a location from Daniel, a fancy multilevel club close to Dupont Circle. Felicity and I brainstorm a way for them to sneak out of the house to join us. In the street below, a cop car blows down a narrow street, wailing all the way. Felicity pulls down the neckline of their sweatshirt and admires the mark I left.

We’re so close. We’re so close that I can feel the key card between my teeth, hear the beep of the penthouse door unlocking, taste the dust that’s gathered inside the walls.

Alyssa

Fine.

But only to make sure you’re okay.

GRAHAM NATHANIEL SLAUGHTER AUDIO FILE TRANSCRIPT

5/15/20XX

I found this transcript on the truecrimegirls forum last year. It looks like the domain expired so I’m uploading it here.

Warning: Graphic Content!!! If you are sensitive to or offended by violent and sexual content, please do not read the following transcript.

Hi, bitch. You’re probably confused right now. Scared, too. Angry as hell, if you’re the type. That makes sense, given the circumstances. You’re in a room you don’t recognize. Bound. Gagged. Alone, since this is only if I can’t be here to walk you through introductions myself. And you’re hurt, too, if you fought me. Really hurt, if you made me do it—if you’re looking down at a broken leg, that’s nobody’s fault but your own. You’re probably panicking. I don’t have the details, because I take a lot of girls and I’m recording this in advance, but just know you’re not special. I’ve done this for years and I’ve gotten good at it. All I want is to make sure that this goes as well as possible for both of us.

You’re obviously here against your will. You’re thinking you’re going to be cut up and abused and beat and you know what, you’re right. It’s going to hurt. I’ve been hurting girls since I was old enough to tie them up. But if you’re good, and you do what you’re told, we can make this more comfortable for the time you have left.

Let’s go over what you can expect.

[Continue reading …]

When I meet Mom in the living room before school the next morning, she doesn’t need to know that Mrs. Keating kicked me out of her house when I overstayed my welcome. Or that I slept on our back porch until Mom went to bed and I could pick the back door open with paper clips from Felicity’s desk. I don’t say anything, and she doesn’t, either. She lays out my clothes and picks out my makeup and leaves.

The mark on my face is gone.

When I get the trust fund and move out, I’ll start testosterone. Eventually, the fat distribution of my face will begin to shift, and my voice will drop, and the soft skin of my hands will turn rough. Maybe I’ll keep my long hair, or maybe I won’t. Maybe I’ll try to pass as a cis man so nobody will ever recognize me, or maybe I’ll be a massive transsexual faggot and wear push-up bras that accentuate my chest hair. I’ll still paint my nails so I don’t see the blood, but I’ll be a man, as long as I’m not a man like him.

Interview #06

Name of Subject: Morgan Slaughter (“MS”)

Name of Interviewer: Greg Rowe (“GR”)

Date: 10/XX/20XX