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Early morning I wake when I feel her leave the bed for the bathroom. When she returns, I go.

She’s thrown the covers back and is lying on her side naked, head propped on a palm watching me.

My steps stall and I spread my hands. “I–ah–don’t have any condoms. It’s been a while. I’ve done nothing since my last test and I was clean.”

“That’s kind of nice to know. Makes me feel like you were waiting for me.”

Once I knew I loved her I was faithful. Even when I never thought she could be mine.

“Just so happens I went on the pill when I applied for the ranger position here. I planned on spending a few months here, either living with you or on my own. I’ve never done this before, so I’m clean.”

“You...”

“I’ve been waiting for you, Micha. Only you. You’ll be my first and hopefully my only.”

The significance of what she’s saying, the gift she’s giving me, settles on my heart. I can’t give her my first, or even my only. But there have been far fewer than anyone would guess. Release for only release’s sake was hollow. If emotions weren’t involved, a hand job was just as satisfactory. I know some guys like to brag about their numbers, but keeping score or running up a tally was never my thing.

What Juni will be is my last and for the rest of my life. She’s my one and only love. No one could ever take her place.

Pushing my sleep pants to the floor, I crawl into bed beside her, lean forward and give her a gentle kiss. “Will you lay back and let me kiss you? Touch you? I want to learn every inch of you, and find what pleases you. What pleasures us both. This, our lovemaking, will always be for both of us. Our bonding.”

She does as I ask and smiles up at me. “I love you, Micha. I have always loved you.”

“I’ve loved you since your dad first put you in my arms as an infant. Even then, I somehow knew you were meant to be mine.”

I kiss her sweet full lips, tasting a hint of her minty toothpaste. Then I kiss her eyes and her nose and once again her lips. Next comes her neck where her pulse beats for me. The hollow of her throat. I follow the path between her breasts. Cupping one full globe in my left hand I shift to suckle the nipple of her other breast.

Her gasp of pleasure feeds my own. Shifting sides, I give equal attention to her other sweet breast.

“Perfect. You are so very perfect for me.”

“And you for me, Micha. I trust you. Love you, like I never could anyone else. With you I feel.... complete. Home.”

“You are my life, Juni.” I slide lower and she gasps when I first lick her little bud. Her hips buck the second time. So responsive. “Do you ever touch yourself?”

“I-ah, a little bit, yes. But this... this is different.”

“It’s supposed to be, sweetheart. Just try to relax and enjoy.”

I tease her button with the tip of my tongue. The sweet sex sounds she makes drive me crazy. It’s been a long time for me and my need is pulsing. Her first. Her always first.

As I flick her tiny bud, she arches and clutches my head. “Micha. Oh my god, Micha!”

Her orgasm washes over her. While she’s still lost in the pleasure, I lean up to suckle her nipple and gently work a finger in to her channel. Damn, she feels good. Warm and soft. Welcoming.

My cock is already weeping, begging to fill her. To join us and make her truly mine.

“More, Micha. More now. Make us one. I have waited so long to make you mine. I love you.”

Shifting so I’m covering her, I position myself and carefully press forward. “You’re in charge. You tell me if you need me to stop. Or whatever you need.”

“I need you, Micha. I need you. I’m good. Please don’t stop.” Before long she’s intimately welcomed me and we’re one. We kiss and snuggle for a few minutes just relaxing before I move. As I approach my release, I make sure I’m giving her nub attention, too.”

“Micha, oh Micha, I think...”

I struggle to keep my own release at bay until she explodes again and I follow. Surely, I’ve died and gone to heaven wrapped in my love’s arms.

CHAPTER 15

Juni

After we climax, he carries me to the shower to tenderly bathe me and gently dries my hair. He slips another of his T-shirts on me before carrying me back to bed.

“I like seeing you in my shirts,” he says as he snuggles me to his chest. “And I like having you in my-our-bed.”

“Wow, you’ve come a long way in a short time. You were originally scared to death to have me here.”

He sighs. “Because I wanted you so badly and knew I didn’t deserve you.”

Leaning up on his elbow. He looks down meeting my gaze in the fire’s glow. “I don’t want to rush you. But I need to tell you what I hope for. I’ve loved you for a long time. When you’re ready, I’d like to marry you. People will talk about the age difference.”

“People always talk. They’ll get over it. It’s our choice and I’d love to be your wife as soon as you want. But I want a couple years to solidify my career before we have children.” I hesitate. “You do want children?”

“I want everything with you. When you’re ready. I had my time, my career. “I’ll stay on the SAR team to help where I can.

“It’s your turn. You’ll be a great Ranger, and you deserve your chance. I support you one hundred percent. I don’t mind being a stay-at-home homemaker and someday dad. You’re gonna have to teach me how to cook veggie style. But I’m open. Nothing is more important to me than you. I want you to be fulfilled and happy.”

“Being with you is what I’ve dreamed of for years. I am happy. Fulfilled? That’s gonna take a lot more orgasms. Starting now.”