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I hated it—loathed how good it felt to have him watch me, but my body reacts to him in a way I can’t explain.
I couldn’t deny that the creativity flowing through me was different with him around.
I just couldn’t let the arrogant fucker know what he did to me.
We didn’t speak, and definitely didn’t touch, but he watched, and that was enough.
Flopping back onto my pillow, I take in the few hours we have off to rest before we fly out this evening.
Grabbing my phone from the charger, I shoot off a text to Sienna.
ME
Why aren’t there more female pilots?
SIENNA
That’s a really great question. I should tell Duke to work on that.
ME
When he finds one, can he switch her out with mine?
SIENNA
Something wrong with yours?
Yeah, I think I’m starting to fucking tolerate him.
Screaming into my pillow, I click the video call at the top of our messages. She picks up, a knowing smirk all over her face.
“How did I get stuck with the most annoying of the four brothers?”
Sienna’s raspy laugh feels like home as I watch her wild curls fall into her face on the other end of my screen.
“You’d be surprised. Duke may have been a tough one to crack, but now that he is, I’d bet he’s right up there with the rest of them.”
“Ugh!” I let out a loud grunt, not hiding my frustration from my best friend.
“Did something happen?”
Yeah, two years ago, I made the most unforgettable mistake. Now, I have to suffer with the reminder that no matter how much my head and heart fight to win, the harsh reality in life is, just because you want them to, things don’t change.
Or I’m just too fucked up to let them.
“Other than making a deal with the devil, no,” I tell her.
“I’m not sure if I even want to know what that means...”
Sienna is full of light and laughter. To anyone not in the middle of a crossfire, her quip would be funny.
“Trust me, you don’t.”
“You know, Jett’s been different lately. Maybe you guys are meant to be on this trip together. I know you guys had that one night, but it wasn’t that bad, was it?”
That night was far from bad. It was the best night of my life.
I feel my body harden like stone before I can catch myself.
