Blaze

Blaze
I didn’t grow up within the club,
I grew up with a mom who was spaced out most of the time,
Who forgot she even had a child at home….
She only cared about her next fix,
And I had to fend for myself for as long as I can remember.
I had friends within the local MC,
Brothers who wanted me to join,
And I was all for it,
Until I realized my deadbeat dad was a brother,
And my best friend was my blood brother, who was shoved aside by the man who fathered me.
He wanted me to take on my blood brother’s role,
A role he was forced to learn,
A role that tore away his childhood.
I didn’t want to take it; I didn’t want anything to do with the man who could shove his son aside and deny my paternity,
But I was convinced my brother would need me,
So, I joined for him, trying to be there,
While keeping my head down.
I swore I’d never bring a woman who owns me into the club,
I swore I’d never settle for a forever, but more of a convenience.
I swore to just be there for my blood brother,
But I never thought she’d become everything,
I never thought she’d take my whole attention,
I never thought I would want a forever kind of love,
I didn’t think I was made for it, but she’s caught my attention,
She’s made me want more despite offering my cut to another,
I just don’t know how I can give her everything when my head is so messed up,
I don’t know how to open up to her, to let her in,
I don’t know how to choose her like she wants to choose me, but if I don’t, then I’ll lose her,
And I don’t know how I can survive in this world without her….

Blair
Growing up, family meant everything to me,
Watching the love my parents had made me wish for the same,
They made me dream and fantasize,
Until they didn’t.
My family got torn apart, and made me hate love,
It made me closed off.
I didn’t have friends, I cut all contact at the beginning of high school, and I barely spoke to my sister,
All I cared about was my job, nothing more, nothing less,
Until he bumped into my life like a tornado that I couldn’t seem to escape.
And he was all I could suddenly think about,
But he wasn’t mine, he was someone else’s,
He was claiming her, yet we shared this undeniable connection.
He became the reason why I breathe,
And I let him in, I give him all of me, the good, the bad, and the ugly,
Only for him to throw it back into my face, reminding me he wasn’t mine.
And for once in my life, I want to fight for someone,
I want to fight for him,
But how do I prove to someone who is closed off that we belong together?
How do I prove that I’m his, that I always will be?
How do I show him we can make it together, and that I’ll become his heart, the reason why he breathes?
How can I prove to him that I’m his forever, unlike the other girl?

This can be read as a standalone. It is book 5 of 7 of the Carnage MC Series, with a HEA. Due to mature content and themes, this book is recommended for readers aged 18+; this novel may contain triggers.